Wednesday, December 8, 2010

morning or night?

Lately my sleep schedule's  So much so that I really don't know if I qualify as night person or a morning person.  It's all one in the same now.   My nights blend into mornings and I feel no desperate need to crawl into bed unless I'm to the point where I'm so tired, I'm angry.  I wonder if this is some sort of psychological disorder.  Perhaps.

At the moment I am about to get breakfast, and the plan is to eat, possibly listen to another MCB lecture, hopefully listen to another MCB lecture (because I have a seemingly inherent disability in terms of being productive during normal hours), look over PSYC notes, go to class, take my quiz, try not to get angry, and depending on my state of mind after PSYC (most likely: Horrendous) I will try to make it to my last and most glorious MCB lecture of the semester.  Last, but my first in a very, very long time.  Hence: glorious (and, I predict: Infuriating, capital "I").  Maybe I'll even make it to the optional CHEM class where we'll spend however many of the fifty minutes making things that will go "boom."

However, all this is very hopeful, if not foolish.  I'd say mostly foolish, because I'm quite awake and aware at the moment, but who's to say it's going to last?  At all?  But it's the thought that counts, no?  And let's face it.  That last one, CHEM class? probably not gonna live to see it happen.

...maybe I'll slip a shower in here somewhere.  ;]

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

i just...

want to dance.
i want to fly.
i want to run.
i want to be able to dream,
to fantasize,
without being told i'm not capable, or that it won't be allowed.
i want to be free.
and do whatever the fuck i wish.
wherever the fuck i choose.

Monday, December 6, 2010

the best twenty dollars.

Post-Urbanite clinics Fall 2010

Telephone - Lady Gaga & Beyonce, choreography by Camillo Lauricella and Nika Kljun

It is needless to say (but I'll say it anyway), this piece makes me so happy.  Partly because it's an amazing, fun dance, and partly because now it reminds me of the day I took class from Nika Kljun, Patrick Chen, and Maxi Fesenmayer.  I sincerely hope I'll get the chance to take class from them again, especially Nika.  She's so fun!  That was the best class experience I've had so far.  Of course because the teachers were so great, but also because it was the first class I've taken where I've felt marked improvement in my dancing (not to mention I could actually see despite having a spot near the back).  I know for an absolute fact that at the beginning of this school year, I would not have been able to pick up this dance in that one class.  By no means can I do it perfectly (yet), but I can do it beginning to end (and I'd like to say fairly well) without getting lost or forgetting the moves.  Which, I used to do frequently in previous classes from other teachers.
The atmosphere in class was amazing, as well.  Everyone there was there - from Mexico, Chicago, Slovenia, Germany, etc - because they loved dance, and it was just fun, and chill.
Can't wait for another class.  Can't wait for another class from Nika!  This might be unlikely, but I really hope she comes back next year.

I Love You - Chris Brown, choreography by Patrick Chen and Maxi Fesenmayer

Friday, November 26, 2010


Jazmine Sullivan - Need You Bad, choreography by Shaun Evaristo


Usher - More, choreography by Keone Madrid

Wednesday, November 24, 2010


Ludacris - Party No Mo, choreography by Kyle Hanagami

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


Janet Jackson - Rock With You, choreography by Shaun Evaristo

My brother just came home, yay!


Hot and sweaty.  That's what this is.  =]

Json - Crank It Up, choreography by Keone Madrid

Monday, November 22, 2010


the floor of my room is going to fall through any second now.  but it's worth it. 

Justin Timberlake - Rock Your Body, choreography by Ian Eastwood and Keone Madrid.

Sunday, November 21, 2010


Back home for break.
I must say, its nice to see the 'rents again.  I got to have a long talk with my mom on the way back, which was nice (and also necessary, 'cause if we weren't talking I would have totally fallen asleep at the wheel).

Coming home's kind of a weird feeling now.  It's like my real home's at school, and I'm just here for the holiday.  Which, I am, just here for the holiday, but you know what I mean..  school is the norm now, and home is that foreign place that I need to get "used to."

But in any case, it's nice.  To have time.  To do stuff.  Like dance.  I almost forgot how nice it was to just take time to dance.  Which actually reminds me.. I need to find somewhere where I can record my dance for One in a Million.  I don't think my room is quite big enough to do that.  Maybe I can find a dance studio  I can use when there's nobody there?  We'll see.
But yea, dance.  I've been itching to dance for weeks now, and I finally can!  With nothing hanging over my head - immediately anyway.  So to start off this oh-so-glorious break filled with dance and food, I learned PDA, choreography by Shaun Evaristo.  Appropriately chill and fun for my first day back.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


You know what I hate more than an unhappy ending?  An ending that never happens.  Or an ending that is the only thing that happens.  Why the hell would anyone think that that is a good way to end a movie?  Sure, you have that moment of revelation where you find out what has actually been going on, but usually, for me, at least, that moment is followed by frustration and intense dissatisfaction.  "Hey, here's a twist.  You know how you just spent the last 2 hours watching this movie?  Yea, none of that actually happened.  Hope you liked it!"
Excuse me?  the hell is wrong with you?

Christian Bale as Patrick Bateman in American Psycho (2000)
I watched the movie American Psycho for my psychology class yesterday, and the movie was going well; I had heard good things about it, and watching Patrick Bateman (Christian Bale) and his psychotic nature was fairly entertaining, and a little funny (although it kind of ruined Batman for me...).  But when you find out at the end that basically the whole movie was just a figment of Bateman's imagination - what you see him do is actually just what he wants to do, and the extent of Bateman's actual activity in the movie turns out to be him drawing like a maniac in his planner about the things he fantasizes about.  Lame.

Jude Law as Remy in Repo Men (2010)
Same with the movie Repo Men, starring Jude Law.  There is a point halfway through the movie when everything that happens from then on is a dream.  What a waste of time.  It's not like these movies are real anyway, but to find out at the end that the final half of the movie didn't happen is quite frustrating.  

Monday, November 8, 2010

we'll just keep running from tomorrow.

Okay, the daily thing failed, but I'll still try to post as often as I can.

I did sleep early on Friday night, so it wasn't a complete failure... even though I was sleeping early because I had to catch a bus at 7:10 the next morning.  Whatever.  Still counts.

But why a bus at a brutal hour of the morning you ask?  I went to Chicago this past Saturday, just for the one day.  For Lyle Beniga and Ian Eastwood's workshop at Visceral Dance Studio.  It was so awesome.  Ian and Lyle are the most amazing dancers.  You think they're so crazy watching them through your computer screen.  It is jaw-dropping, their skill and the level to which they take their dancing, and seeing it in person, the aura they emit, speechless.

The dances they taught.  Ridiculous.  And even though it was incredibly discouraging that day to see someone at least 5 years younger than me (and someone who was FIVE.  ...okay, maybe seven) totally kill it, I'm gonna get there.  That moment's discouragement will be my fuel.

To grow.  From here on out, never to forget that there is no end to growth, in anything and everything, unless I choose otherwise.  I speak four languages: English, Korean, Spanish, Dance.  At none of these am I perfect.  Although I am further along in some than others, the amount I can improve in each is the same.  Never will I ever master a single one of those languages, but I can come damn close.
This is what dance teaches me.  Dance is more than just moves to me; it's a reminder, of all the things that can be, and that they never come easy.

Lyle Beniga & Ian Eastwood - Young Lions Workshop - 11/08/10

Thursday, November 4, 2010


So... let's try to make this a daily thing.  Hopefully I will have some sort of post up every day.  Time permitting.  Most likely I'll make time by sleeping a little less (?), so no worries.  You will get to hear me ramble every day.

The main reason I'm doing this is because I want something consistent.  Rather, I want the feeling of consistency (and productivity?).  I don't mean that I want routine, just that feeling of doing consistently well, being consistently productive, not wasting time.  Because lately, that is something I don't have.  Hopefully doing this will help me get that feeling and get everything else back on track - not that it isn't on track, I just don't feel honky-dory about it.  So why don't I feel the honky-dory-ness?  Mainly it's because I've fallen into several habits lately that I must and WILL break.

Some habits of mine:
1) I sleep late. - Nowadays, I rarely sleep before 4 or 5 in the morning.  I am either legitimately studying, or I'm "studying."  I partially blame this on wanting more time, therefore staying up late and getting up (relatively) at the same time makes me feel better about the fact that the days go by so fah-reakin fast.

2) I (sometimes) skip class. - An adverse affect of sleeping late.  I like to snooze.  And then I unknowingly turn my alarm off.  And then I wake up 5 minutes before my class is supposed to start.  And then I spew a plethora of expletives at the morning air (and/or myself) and fall back asleep.  Wash, rinse, repeat.    ...Shit.

3) I like to take naps. - See a trend here?  Little sleep means I most likely take a nap during the day.  Maybe even at night?  Which means later that night.. not so tired.  Therefore I sleep late.  Wash, rinse, repeat.    ...Fuck.

I guess these are the main three that have contributed to my shitty feeling.  But it's ok, 'cause like I said, they will be broken.  And pronto.  No more of this nocturnal business.  Lol (as I write this at 5 in the morning).  We'll see how it goes.

Linkin Park.  An old love of mine.  My first addiction.

Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

third time.

1) architecture.
2) molecular and cellular biology.
3) linguistics and computer science.

All are majors that I have tried / are going to try.  But the third is the one.  It better be the one, 'cause I don't really have the time or resources to change again.  I started saying to myself quite a bit throughout this semester that I should go into languages.  I've always loved learning new languages, and the topic of linguistics has always fascinated me, but I never considered it as a career option.  It's just now that I realized the only class I've ever actually looked forward to was my Korean class.  It's the only one I've never skipped, never dreaded, the only one where I'm not constantly looking at the clock.
I wish I had come to this realization earlier, as I am now stuck in the middle of classes that have absolutely nothing to do with me anymore.  Which equals zero motivation to study for those classes.  The only problem is I want to keep my GPA, so after I write this... guess what?  I'm gonna go study.  The rest of this semester should prove interesting...

On the bright side, I have so much less on my shoulders, like those constant worries and what-if's about med school that never really leave you.  Gone.  I'm actually pretty damn excited about this change.  It won't be by any means easier, and I'm very well aware that there are other worries that come to replace the med school concerns, 'cause I hear linguistics and computer science is of the bitch family also, but it'll be so worth it.  Why?  'Cause I love it.

Modest Mouse - Float On

Monday, November 1, 2010


그 날이 오면...

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Otherside


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

세상에서 가장 못된...

가장 이기적인 나.

정말... 내가 싫을때가 가끔 있다.

아~ 눈물...
닦아주고 싶다.

그 못...
빼주고 싶다.

그 상처...
지울수 있을까?

샤이니 - 욕 (慾) 

넬 - 믿어선 안될말

Friday, October 15, 2010


---4:40 AM---

Ok.  I'm gonna go to sleep eventually tonight.  But not at the moment.
I seem to (apparently) have this thing where even though I know I'm going to be hella tired the next day, I don't feel the need to hurry to bed.  Yea.  Wtf.

Anyway, I've finished what I meant to finish tonight, and because I spent just about all of this week studying, and because I'm going to spend basically all of next week studying, I've decided to take tomorrow/today off.  yay.

So.. day off means doing choreo... lol.  Which, by the way, I cannot wait for.  I haven't danced in a while thanks to exams, but tomorrow is the day.  Gonna choreo, maybe (hopefully) learn a new dance, and RELAX.  what an idea.

---5:27 AM---

Looks like I'll be downstairs for a little bit more cause the Koreans down here are going outside for a cigarette (go figure) and they need me to open the door for them.  Apparently they don't live here?  Why are they here?  um...

Anyway, I figured out what song I'm going to do choreography for next (I actually just made a tentative mix for the first dance for Nightlife scene - life is so much more productive in the wee hours of the night/morning), AAAnd what dance I want to learn next.  I'm so excited!  Can't wait.

---5:32 AM---

Koreans are back in the building... that was fast.  aaand I'm still not going upstairs yet.  I guess I just wanted to talk about them.  that they smoke.  and they're fast.  cuz that's news.

---5:41 AM---

oh. um.. just cuz I always have a song with my posts...

I actually haven't listened to these guys in a while, and I was reminded of them by their concert poster that was up (they're performing here!), so I went back and listened to them.. and remembered why they're so awesome.

30 Seconds to Mars - Night of the Hunter

---5:50 AM---


Wednesday, October 6, 2010

at war with dream.

So.  Hoping this wakes me up a little bit.

Downloaded a song by Jay Park, and it took me a couple listens to realize that it's actually former 2PM member Jay Park.  I did recognize the name, but listening, I just thought "I didn't know there was another artist named Jay Park."  This was partly because I didn't have a very high opinion of Jay Park's singing, and this one wasn't half bad, so it kinda went against my predisposition.  And part of it was 'cause he's not the only one singing.  But anyhow, it's not half bad.

See for yourself.

Speechless - Jay Park

And he has another single called 'Bestie' that's also decent. Apparently the studio version isn't out yet though, so no vid.

Oh, and this failed at the waking up, but whatever.
I suppose I will go to bed in a little bit..
SIGH. my mortal enemy.  why must you be so difficult?

Monday, October 4, 2010


I really hate losing invaluable points in class for stupid shit that could've been easily avoided.  Like forgetting to do homework.  Fuck that shit.

So, moral... don't forget to do homework.  Make the damned to-do list.  And use it.


This is completely unrelated, but isn't it SO cute?

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

grazie a destino

change one small thing, and EVERYTHING would be different.

When I came to college, I had no idea who my roommate would be. Due to my innate laziness, I had applied late for housing, and I got a temporary room with two other students. A week or so before move-in, I was emailed a new, more permanent room assignment, and that's where my life as I know it right now started. My roommate. And the only reason I was assigned as her roommate was because the girl who was supposed to room with her didn't show for some reason. She must have transferred, or switched dorms. Either way, by some stroke of luck, I met my current roommate Christine. We ended up doing a lot of things together. Long story short (again, I'm lazy), with Christine I joined the Asian-American club on campus, which is where I met a lot of people. And with Christine I joined the club's annual show, which is where I found my passion for dance as well as met a lot of my closest friends.

It's really strange to think that, had I come to college and not met my current roommate, I would not be where I am right now. Had I gone to a different college, I would not be where I am right now. I would not have met all the people that I spend a good portion of my time with now (maybe I would have, but I definitely wouldn't have been as close), I would definitely not be as involved, and on that note, I would most definitely not have been dancing. Wow. What would I be doing now? I have no idea. What would I do without my friends now, and what would I do without dance?

grazie a destino.

Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong

Sick Puppies - All The Same

Bullet For My Valentine - Forever and Always

Yea...I couldn't pick just one.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

give 'til there's nothing left. value in every breath.

Atreyu - Bleeding is a Luxury

would you throw it all away?
what is the extent of your passion?
what is your need for your passion?
does it transcend your need/want for comfort and security?
what is comfort and security?
what is approval?
what is it?
do you really need it?
could you throw it all away?

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

MY yogurt is good 'til...

King of New York Hacks: HOPE, and The King of New York Hacks invents a car...: "I have developed a car that will run on water. Unfortunately you'll have to go to the Gulf of Mexico to fill it up. Ba dum dum ching ! ;-) ..."

I came across this blog today on the Blogs of Note and... it's Nice.
The post linked above, I especially liked.  Granted, it's only the second out of two posts I read, but I'm sure you'll enjoy it, too.
Hope.  Yea, I enjoy hope.
*Just picture Agnes (Despicable Me) as the child whose yogurt is more credible than the Mayan calendar, and be prepared for the cutest experience of your day.

"Does this count as annoying?"
Speaking of which, Despicable Me?  saw it today.  SUCH a cute movie!  Agnes is THE cutest thing, and Gru? what a softy.  =]
It was a fun, yet predictable movie.  Although... the second(?) scene where Gru gives the little boy a balloon animal just to pop it in his face was admittedly traumatizing.

And while we're on the topic of movies, I watched Repo Men yesterday.  Apparently there is no relation to the movie Repo! The Genetic Opera.  And I thought it was just a remake.  But no.  It's apparently a movie adaptation of the novel Repossession Mambo published in 2009, whereas Repo! was released in 2008.  Still.. very suspicious.
Anyway, the movie was alright.  And by alright, I mean... Eh.  I wouldn't go around recommending it to people...  It's quite gruesome, as you can imagine, some humor thrown around here and there, mediocre plot, with a twist at the end that, although it might have taken you by surprise, was predictable.  But, I must admit, it was an interesting concept (not necessarily original) of being able to buy organs as you would a car or a house.  On credit.  Money you do NOT have.  ALMOST sounds stupid.  And for an organ that costs more than your average house and car combined.  No thanks.  I choose exercise and a healthy diet.  Eat that, Bitches!

But, yea, back to the reason I even decided to post this.  That blog up there ^^ (at least that post if nothing else).  It's worth a look.  Check it out.  =D

Friday, August 6, 2010

hurricane venus.

BoA is back with her 6th Korean album after five years abroad in Japan and the US.  Yah!  =D
Hurricane Venus.

Hurricane Venus. (title track) - heavy beat.  catchy.  god i love the thick Synthetic quality of the sound.

Dangerous. - same as before, more or less.  solid beat.  catchy.  Like.

한별 (Implode) - my FAVorite ballad on the album!  if not my favorite song on the album overall.  <3.  it's Simple, Organic.  you FEEL this one.  Love Kim Jong Wan (from the band Nell, who is also the composer) at the end of the song.  <3.

i used to be a little iffy about BoA's voice, but I must say, it's growing on me.  (and might I add that her English is so so much better after her US debut?  thank goodness.)

that's it.  i'm a Fan.  =D

Wednesday, June 30, 2010


Taeyang's new solo album SOLAR: July 01, 2010 (that's Thursday!)

Song in the video is Superstar.

Damn... that Smile... =] that... ... damn. ;]

I Need A Girl - Taeyang

Just A Feeling - Taeyang

Ahh...!  I'm excited. Can't wait. Album sounds... and looks. =]  pretty good so far... =D

"Solar" Concept photos

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

this is when it starts, from THE BEATing of your heart.

Deja Vu - 3OH!3

I'm Not The One - 3OH!3

You're way too young to be broken.  You're way too young to fall apart.  You're way too young to play these games, But you better start, But you better start.  This is when it starts, From THE BEATing of your heart Till the streetlamps talk to you. Jumping off of the edge, Oversleeping your head, Everything's turning dark to you.  
I went to pick up the parts, The doctor's hiding the charts, He won't let me see this side of you.  It's on the tip of my tongue, You know you're way too young To have someone lie to you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You're way too young to be broken.  You're way too young to fall apart.  You're way too young to play these games, But you'd better start, But you'd better start.  It was the second I lit Your first cigarette, I forget who you used to be.  And I bit my lip The second you sipped The poison that was mixed for me.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  Drink the poison lightly, 'Cause there are deeper and darker things than you.  I know 'cause I've been there too.  I know it might seem frightening To have the world fall apart right under your shoes.  Trust me, You'll make it through.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.

Currently on my playlist. on Repeat. 3OH!3's new album Streets of Gold.  Mm.  I like.

Definitely redeemed themselves from the first impression they made on me.  Let's not go there.  I honestly don't even remember when.  I just remember it was the first time I saw or heard of 3OH!3, it was a live performance, and I hated it.

*****My favorites on this album... (in no special order)

I'M NOT THE ONE.  my FAVorite of them all.  the Beat.  the Lyrics.  love <3 Love it.

DEJA VU.  Ever feel like you're running in Circles?  This is Deja Vu.  Bitch.

BEAUMONT.  The intro track.  A nice heavy sound.  Fairly simple, catchy beat.  get a small Groove and a head bob goin'.  Yea.

I CAN DO ANYTHING.  think, say, and do whatever the fuck you want, cuz I...

WE ARE YOUNG.  ah, youth.

R.I.P.  the grass isn't always as green.

DOUBLE VISION.  Anyone else think the intro kinda sounds like New Day by Will.I.Am?...

STREETS OF GOLD.  You walk on streets of gold, my friend.

LOVE 2012.  Dubstep!?  I believe so.  ...yum.

Well... that's Almost all of them.  Definitely a recommended album.  I do like all of the songs, despite leaving 5 off the list.  My least favorite is HOUSE PARTY.  I don't know about that one... maybe it'll grow on me... maybe Not.

Check it out.  Maybe even buy it...?  now there's an idea.  Lol.... =\

Monday, June 14, 2010

gone with the wind.

passion |ˈpa sh ən|
1 strong and barely controllable emotion
• a state or outburst of such emotion
• an intense desire or enthusiasm for something

slips my grasp.
comes and goes.
like a ghost.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

one, two, three, four, five, 6....

They told me 6.


Monday and Tuesday of this week was definitely an adventure for me. In a sense. The pastor of my church had a seminar he was attending and apparently people were going to be bringing their children. Who, of course, since their parents would be occupied with the seminar, would need watching. So he asked me if I would go with them for an overnight stay at the Quality Inn in the city and be nanny.


I've never had to watch over children before, at least not officially, and before I could even consider it, horrible images of children running around, screaming and yelling, falling, spilling, destroying! everything in their path, were running through my mind. Not to mention little ones getting hurt, and it being my fault for the simple fact that I'm the oldest one there. Hell no.

I packed Sunday night, and Monday morning, I woke up early to drive to my church where I would ride with my paster to the Quality Inn. ...Turns out if I turned this down they would have to go find a random stranger with a whoknowswhatkindofscarypast. Nobody wants that. So I just thought of it as experience and said yes.

What an experience.

They told me 6. I was expecting 6. It was NOT 6.
Nine. 9. That's 50% more volume.

But, nothing super out-of-the-ordinary happened... thank goodness. Nobody got seriously hurt, nobody died or got dysentery, but I did get a super sah-lammin' headache. And a reminder of why I'll never teach elementary school. Or middle school. Not that I want to teach at all, just sayin'.

I'll leave the rest of the fine details to your imagination.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

또다시 배운다.

Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park
Road to Revolution Live at Milton Keynes

그 캐릭터가 좋다고 말을했었어요.
너무 마음에 든다고.
그리고선 그 캐릭터를 화면으로 보시더니,
우리 엄마가 걱정을 하시더라구요.
네가 이캐릭터를 좋아한다는게
너무 이해가 안된다고 말씀을 하셨어요.
참 상처가 많은 사람이었거든요.
그로 인해 참 못된 사람이였구요.
전, 그게 좋았어요.

왜냐고, 엄마가 무르셨어요.
또 이해 못하갰다는 말씀까지.
그 당시 저도 대답을 할수가없었어요.
저도 딱히 무르니까.
그냥 배우가 좋다고, 거짓말은 아니지만,
그냥 그 배우의 팬이라고 넘겼어요.

지금 생각하면
그 캐릭터가 왠지 끌렸어요.
안쓰러운 마음에,
그리고 어떡해 보면, 나를보는것 같은 느낌에.
물론, 그정도는 아니죠.
저, 그런사람 아니예요.
저, 그렇게 힘든 과거 없습니다.
그냥, 그 캐릭터로인해
제 속 깊이, 들키지않갰금 숨겨놨던개
시원히, 아주 후련하게, 표현 되는것 같았습니다.
표현이 서툰 저한탠, 이게 행운이였습니다.

그리고 저, 그사람으로인해, 많은것을 배웠습니다.
그 사람이 커가는것,
그 사람이 하나씩 배워가는것,
그 사람이 마음의 문을
조금씩 여러가는것을 보면서
아주많은것을 배웠습니다.
이미 알고있었을지도 모름니다.
아마 그랬을꺼예요.
단지... 그동안 잊엇었던걸 또다시 배웠을뿐이지.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

a small reminder.

Cinderella's Sister OST
신데렐라 언니 OST

It Has To Be You - Yesung
너 아니면 안돼 - 예성

Little things around you that make you think....  Yes, that was what this K-drama was for me.  A small reminder of all the things we have and take for granted...  things we have that so many others don't and wish they did.  Just a small reminder...

I watched this music video before and after watching the drama (it is what made me want to watch the drama in the first place), and I didn't realize until some way through that the music video actually doesn't use any scenes from the drama like they usually do.  Nonetheless, by the end, I saw that the video was just as significant, if not more so.  Serving as an introduction for the characters, the scenes showed their scars, their pasts, their conflicts, and gave the characters even more depth and clarity.  It was, in itself, an extension of the drama.

The drama was very well written, the acting was amazing (especially by Moon Geun Young and Seo Woo), the characters were amazing, and their development and dynamics from beginning to end was just so fun to watch (although somewhat predictable  =\ ).  Upon reflection, it only gets better.  Definitely recommended.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

new day.

Starlight - Muse

It's funny how I feel so much closer to people I've known for less than a year now than to those I've known for over four.  Is it because I've spent a lot of time with them in a matter of 8 months?  Or is it because we share the same interests?  I'm not quite sure.  What I do know is that with the people I've met recently, I am more of myself than I ever was.  I wish I had met them earlier.  Sometimes I wonder.  But then again, I wouldn't go back to change a single thing.  Because that would mean things now would be different, and I don't want that.    I love life right now.  More than ever, and I'm sad that I'm apart from the friends that helped make it that way, but it won't be too bad.  It's just a summer, and I've got things to do...

summer break...


Seoul Song by So Nyeo Shi Dae and Super Junior. It's not exactly about summer, but who cares, it makes me think of summer. Partly because I only ever go to Seoul in the summer. And the song just makes me happy. It makes me want to take a walk in the city with a camera, and just balk in the smog and traffic jams. lol. Not to sound sarcastic, but you know what I mean. *sigh I miss Korea. I'll just have to make do for now, I guess. We have a Main Street... does that count...?

My summer this year...: work (hopefully; application is still pending), dance, sleep, repeat. That's how it's looking right now. Maybe I'll throw a couple of trips in there somewhere. And by couple I mean one. *sigh "couple" sounded so good there, too. But it's too much of a reach, I guess.

Oh yea, I just finished my first year of college. Awesome. So summer is a little different now, in a sense. Now I have to worry about paying for next year. Oh, money. You are a nuisance in so many ways. But we can't help but to love ya. I guess that's why you make life so difficult. Because so many people are so in love with you. On the brighter side, I've met a ton of new people, and made a lot of new friends, and I picked up dancing, which has - I think - changed me for the better. Not to mention it's a fun little way to pass time. And it led to the name of this blog (I like it a lot if that hasn't hit you yet).

But yes, summer.  Hope it doesn't fly by too fast, you know, it's not like anything ever does, just saying...

Friday, April 30, 2010


태양 - 웨딩드레스
Taeyang - Wedding Dress

Taeyang's Wedding Dress.  It's not exactly a new song, but it's the one song that I have yet to get sick of after listening to it a kajillion times.  Not to mention he's ... so. sexy.  Watch, and confirm that everything I've said is true.
There also seems to be a sort of Taeyang obsession at my school - at least within my group of friends.  (I never knew that Kpop was so popular...)  And, being a fan myself, I've decided to take time out of my scarce homework time to express my love.  Yes, let's all put off our homework and watch that hunk of sexy do his thing.  =D

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

to have loved and lost...

2PM - Without U

This is Without U by 2PM.  It's one of their newer songs.  I was listening to it earlier today... and it reminded me so much of what one of my good friends went through last year.  Granted, I only heard about what happened from her, but I imagine this is how she must have felt at one point in time, possibly still.  I only regret not having been able to truly understand...

Wednesday, March 31, 2010


Ahh... there's no better feeling on a Wednesday afternoon then acing your chemistry exam. YES. It's on and poppin', the parties rockin', the cuties shockin', and there ain't no stoppin'... haha. LMFAO's YES. It's THE feel-good song, and this dance (choreography by Don Mach, 2XS UIUC) is just so fun. =D Enjoy.


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Choreo Cookies at Body Rock 2009

So, this is Choreo Cookies. I came across these guys just by chance, and guess what? They're so SICK! They've got some awesome choreo, crazy formation changes, and the dancing is so clean. I'm a fan.

두 눈을 감고, 두 귀를 막고...

아웃사이더 - 외톨이
Outsider - Loner

This blog, which is actually purely for my own entertainment (but if you guys enjoy it too, great), is just a place for me to record my thoughts on anything and everything.  
In this case, it's a song that I absolutely love. I can definitely relate to some days, and it serves as a little reminder that we're never really alone in anything we do. No matter what we experience, you can be guaranteed that there's someone, somewhere in the world, that is going through the same thing.

Not to mention that Outsider is an awesome rapper: really freakin' fast, clear, and good delivery. And the song's got nice symphonic instrumentals. It's not by any means the first time symphony and rap were meshed, but the strings are a nice change of pace from the run-of-the-mill stuff you hear every day, and they suit the song well, too.