tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-88750734626926599532024-02-20T01:27:18.085-06:00wanderlust언제까지.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.comBlogger41125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-9211359039260285882011-03-11T00:19:00.002-06:002011-03-11T00:19:21.937-06:00one of the reasons i love college.Because I don't have to see the 'rents every day. Leave it up to them to somehow put you in a shitty mood anyway.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-49148807079186601732011-02-14T06:40:00.000-06:002011-02-14T06:40:14.445-06:00write "FAILURE," read "EXPERIENCE."we can totally do this.<br />
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쓸때는 <b>실패</b>라고 쓰지만<br />
훗날 읽을때는 <b>경험</b>이라고 읽는다.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-6041911970202663562011-02-10T05:44:00.000-06:002011-02-10T05:44:25.634-06:00breakfast?I am O so dangerously close to getting breakfast before I go to bed right now. But that would be stupid. Cuz that would increase the chance of me going back to my old sleeping schedule from last semester by a good 'ol tenfold. ...<br />
...<br />
...<br />
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Agh.<br />
Good night.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-31580908262728643832011-02-08T12:22:00.000-06:002011-02-08T12:22:53.290-06:00이제서야.드디어, 내가 인생에서 원하는 것을 찾은것같다... 그런대 그것을 어떻게 나의 현실로 만들수있을까? 어떻게하면 바람이 될수있을까?tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-7110928733138094622011-01-03T00:25:00.001-06:002011-01-05T21:28:42.577-06:00you give me a feeling that I...<div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">So here I am, back after a little blogging dry spell with that fresh feeling that the new year always brings (a feeling that is too often short-lived - by many. I sincerely wish everyone the best of luck in keeping your New Year's resolutions last past February. All not to be pessimistic, but real. How about renewing those resolutions every week and not every year? I'm saying this to myself, as well, so please don't be offended at my seeming lack of faith). Anyway, happy New Year! </span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">새해복</span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;"> </span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">많이</span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;"> </span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">받으세</span><span lang="KO" style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;"><span class="Apple-style-span">요!</span></span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">The countdown this year for me was actually kind of bland. I saw it happen in New York an hour before it would even be relevant to me. So ten minutes before midnight (my time), 2011 was old news. Somehow the fact that the new year actually (technically) happens 24 times all over the world makes it a little less special. And the next time I saw the clock, at 12:30am, i felt no different than I did approximately 40 minutes before. I say 'approximately' because during that 40 minutes I wasn't thinking of the new year at all, and my sense of time was nonexistent - I wasn't thinking the "10, 9, 8…, 2, 1" that everyone else in my time zone was thinking. </span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">I wanna say the new year really happened for me on the 17th of December. My last final exam of the semester. That was the real release I had been waiting for ever since I decided I wasn't going to major in biology anymore. Those final two months (?) or so of my fall semester were really just a drag because I was stuck studying something that no longer meant anything to me. The only thing that kept me going was my GPA. I suppose that's the real clue that I shouldn't be majoring in biology. The only reason I sat through biology and chemistry classes - mind, nowhere does this say that I was awake in said class - was because it was relevant to my then-future-career. Not because I was interested. Because it was relevant. So my new year came a little early. My countdown was not me, champagne-in-hand watching a shiny ball drop, it was me looking over my chemistry exam for the third time, relieved - although slightly in disbelief - that it was all over. Glad that I could be excited with no extraneous thoughts or strings attached.</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">So the new year's bringing good things. Mainly two. I'm finally going to get to dive into linguistics and computer science (my new major and minor), and I'm getting another shot at Dance 2xs UIUC (this is the year - I'm going hard ;] ).</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div class="MsoNormal" style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small; line-height: 115%;">and That is all. <b>For now</b>.</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;">Alicia Keys - Unthinkable, choreography by Shaun Evaristo</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/x4bmTrWuvCQ?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/x4bmTrWuvCQ?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object></span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
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</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;">and this is just a special treat, cuz Nika's awesome, in every sense of the word.</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><br />
</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;">Willow - Whip My Hair, choreography by Nika Kljun</span></div><div style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: small;"><object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/K8FzNmwAxK8?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/K8FzNmwAxK8?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object></span></div>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-26970258561596095652010-12-08T07:29:00.002-06:002010-12-08T11:30:42.232-06:00morning or night?Lately my sleep schedule's been...off. So much so that I really don't know if I qualify as night person or a morning person. It's all one in the same now. My nights blend into mornings and I feel no desperate need to crawl into bed unless I'm to the point where I'm so tired, I'm angry. I wonder if this is some sort of psychological disorder. Perhaps.<br />
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At the moment I am about to get breakfast, and the plan is to eat, possibly listen to another MCB lecture, <i>hopefully</i> listen to another MCB lecture (because I have a seemingly inherent disability in terms of being productive during normal hours), look over PSYC notes, go to class, take my quiz, try not to get angry, and depending on my state of mind after PSYC (most likely: Horrendous) I will try to make it to my last and most glorious MCB lecture of the semester. Last, but my first in a very, very long time. Hence: glorious (and, I predict: Infuriating, capital "I"). Maybe I'll even make it to the optional CHEM class where we'll spend however many of the fifty minutes making things that will go "boom."<br />
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However, all this is very hopeful, if not foolish. I'd say mostly foolish, because I'm quite awake and aware at the moment, but who's to say it's going to last? At all? But it's the thought that counts, no? And let's face it. That last one, CHEM class? probably not gonna live to see it happen. <br />
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...maybe I'll slip a shower in here somewhere. ;]tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-42997968380499790692010-12-07T01:44:00.000-06:002010-12-07T01:44:54.204-06:00i just...want to dance.<br />
i want to fly.<br />
i want to run.<br />
i want to be able to dream,<br />
to fantasize,<br />
without being told i'm not capable, or that it won't be allowed.<br />
i want to be free.<br />
of...everything.<br />
and do whatever the fuck i wish.<br />
wherever the fuck i choose.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-68810519339799513962010-12-06T04:08:00.003-06:002010-12-07T05:52:49.866-06:00the best twenty dollars.Post-Urbanite clinics Fall 2010<br />
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Telephone - Lady Gaga & Beyonce, choreography by Camillo Lauricella and Nika Kljun<br />
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It is needless to say (but I'll say it anyway), this piece makes me so happy. Partly because it's an amazing, fun dance, and partly because now it reminds me of the day I took class from Nika Kljun, Patrick Chen, and Maxi Fesenmayer. I sincerely hope I'll get the chance to take class from them again, especially Nika. She's so fun! That was the best class experience I've had so far. Of course because the teachers were so great, but also because it was the first class I've taken where I've felt marked improvement in my dancing (not to mention I could actually see despite having a spot near the back). I know for an absolute fact that at the beginning of this school year, I would not have been able to pick up this dance in that one class. By no means can I do it perfectly (yet), but I can do it beginning to end (and I'd like to say fairly well) without getting lost or forgetting the moves. Which, I used to do frequently in previous classes from other teachers.<br />
The atmosphere in class was amazing, as well. Everyone there was there - from Mexico, Chicago, Slovenia, Germany, etc - because they loved dance, and it was just fun, and chill.<br />
Can't wait for another class. Can't wait for another class from Nika! This might be unlikely, but I really hope she comes back next year. <br />
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I Love You - Chris Brown, choreography by Patrick Chen and Maxi Fesenmayer<br />
<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/clQUarW585s?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/clQUarW585s?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-82412926731525774042010-11-26T20:11:00.000-06:002010-11-26T20:11:30.224-06:00seven.Jazmine Sullivan - Need You Bad, choreography by Shaun Evaristo<br />
<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/qBX8l2Y4NLg?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/qBX8l2Y4NLg?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-35682042827130421872010-11-26T03:04:00.000-06:002010-11-26T20:09:00.149-06:00six.Usher - More, choreography by Keone Madrid<br />
<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6ItxtUMZFa4?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6ItxtUMZFa4?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-69963371382628527922010-11-24T19:58:00.000-06:002010-11-24T19:58:20.446-06:00five.Ludacris - Party No Mo, choreography by Kyle Hanagami<br />
<object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/VD74CLQq9Ro?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/VD74CLQq9Ro?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-84850377492740036432010-11-23T23:38:00.002-06:002010-11-24T17:19:03.622-06:00four.Janet Jackson - Rock With You, choreography by Shaun Evaristo<br />
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My brother just came home, yay!tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-83428934162985103312010-11-23T01:24:00.000-06:002010-11-23T01:24:55.241-06:00three.Hot and sweaty. That's what this is. =]<br />
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Json - Crank It Up, choreography by Keone Madrid<br />
<object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/l68IUoZO8bw?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/l68IUoZO8bw?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-82819464316829805232010-11-22T00:24:00.000-06:002010-11-22T00:24:17.662-06:00two.the floor of my room is going to fall through any second now. but it's worth it. <br />
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Justin Timberlake - Rock Your Body, choreography by Ian Eastwood and Keone Madrid.<br />
<object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/cb2kuU6hHA4?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/cb2kuU6hHA4?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-87913476347300743902010-11-21T16:58:00.000-06:002010-11-21T16:58:01.868-06:00one.Back home for break.<br />
I must say, its nice to see the 'rents again. I got to have a long talk with my mom on the way back, which was nice (and also necessary, 'cause if we weren't talking I would have totally fallen asleep at the wheel).<br />
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Coming home's kind of a weird feeling now. It's like my real home's at school, and I'm just here for the holiday. Which, I am, just here for the holiday, but you know what I mean.. school is the norm now, and home is that foreign place that I need to get "used to."<br />
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But in any case, it's nice. To have time. To do stuff. Like dance. I almost forgot how nice it was to just take time to dance. Which actually reminds me.. I need to find somewhere where I can record my dance for One in a Million. I don't think my room is quite big enough to do that. Maybe I can find a dance studio I can use when there's nobody there? We'll see.<br />
But yea, dance. I've been itching to dance for weeks now, and I finally can! With nothing hanging over my head - immediately anyway. So to start off this oh-so-glorious break filled with dance and food, I learned PDA, choreography by Shaun Evaristo. Appropriately chill and fun for my first day back.<br />
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<object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Zme-i0BWyjM?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Zme-i0BWyjM?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-52433490471328060892010-11-16T19:29:00.003-06:002010-11-16T19:35:34.937-06:00psych.You know what I hate more than an unhappy ending? An ending that never happens. Or an ending that is the only thing that happens. Why the hell would anyone think that that is a good way to end a movie? Sure, you have that moment of revelation where you find out what has actually been going on, but usually, for me, at least, that moment is followed by frustration and intense dissatisfaction. "Hey, here's a twist. You know how you just spent the last 2 hours watching this movie? Yea, none of that actually happened. Hope you liked it!" <br />
Excuse me? the hell is wrong with you?<br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://images.allmoviephoto.com/2000_American_Psycho/christian_bale_american_psycho_005.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="320" src="http://images.allmoviephoto.com/2000_American_Psycho/christian_bale_american_psycho_005.jpg" width="208" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Christian Bale as Patrick Bateman in American Psycho (2000)</td></tr>
</tbody></table></div><div>*SPOILERS</div><div>I watched the movie American Psycho for my psychology class yesterday, and the movie was going well; I had heard good things about it, and watching Patrick Bateman (Christian Bale) and his psychotic nature was fairly entertaining, and a little funny (although it kind of ruined Batman for me...). But when you find out at the end that basically the whole movie was just a figment of Bateman's imagination - what you see him do is actually just what he wants to do, and the extent of Bateman's actual activity in the movie turns out to be him drawing like a maniac in his planner about the things he fantasizes about. Lame.<br />
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<tr><td style="text-align: center;"><a href="http://www.wired.com/images_blogs/underwire/2010/03/repomen-judevictim-660.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: auto; margin-right: auto;"><img border="0" height="197" src="http://www.wired.com/images_blogs/underwire/2010/03/repomen-judevictim-660.jpg" width="320" /></a></td></tr>
<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Jude Law as Remy in Repo Men (2010)</td></tr>
</tbody></table>*SPOILERS<br />
Same with the movie Repo Men, starring Jude Law. There is a point halfway through the movie when everything that happens from then on is a dream. What a waste of time. It's not like these movies are real anyway, but to find out at the end that the final half of the movie didn't happen is quite frustrating. </div>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-51213341390486436372010-11-08T16:31:00.007-06:002010-11-10T12:09:57.868-06:00we'll just keep running from tomorrow.Okay, the daily thing failed, but I'll still try to post as often as I can.<br />
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I did sleep early on Friday night, so it wasn't a complete failure... even though I was sleeping early because I had to catch a bus at 7:10 the next morning. Whatever. Still counts. <br />
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But why a bus at a brutal hour of the morning you ask? I went to Chicago this past Saturday, just for the one day. For Lyle Beniga and Ian Eastwood's workshop at Visceral Dance Studio. It was so awesome. Ian and Lyle are the most amazing dancers. You think they're so crazy watching them through your computer screen. It is jaw-dropping, their skill and the level to which they take their dancing, and seeing it in person, the aura they emit, speechless.<br />
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The dances they taught. Ridiculous. And even though it was incredibly discouraging that day to see someone at least 5 years younger than me (and someone who was FIVE. ...okay, maybe seven) totally kill it, I'm gonna get there. That moment's discouragement will be my fuel. <br />
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To grow. From here on out, never to forget that there is no end to growth, in anything and everything, unless I choose otherwise. I speak four languages: English, Korean, Spanish, Dance. At none of these am I perfect. Although I am further along in some than others, the amount I can improve in each is the same. Never will I ever master a single one of those languages, but I can come damn close. <br />
This is what dance teaches me. Dance is more than just moves to me; it's a reminder, of all the things that can be, and that they never come easy.<br />
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Lyle Beniga & Ian Eastwood - Young Lions Workshop - 11/08/10<br />
<object height="385" width="640"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/UIEPqlwfu7I?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/UIEPqlwfu7I?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="640" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-13307485112519904162010-11-04T05:17:00.005-05:002010-11-04T15:48:09.253-05:00습관.So... let's try to make this a daily thing. Hopefully I will have some sort of post up every day. Time permitting. Most likely I'll make time by <s>sleeping a little less (?)</s>, so no worries. You will get to hear me ramble every day. <br />
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The main reason I'm doing this is because I want something consistent. Rather, I want the feeling of consistency (and productivity?). I don't mean that I want routine, just that feeling of doing consistently well, being consistently productive, not wasting time. Because lately, that is something I don't have. Hopefully doing this will help me get that feeling and get everything else back on track - not that it isn't on track, I just don't feel honky-dory about it. So why don't I feel the honky-dory-ness? Mainly it's because I've fallen into several habits lately that I must and WILL break.<br />
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Some habits of mine:<br />
1) I sleep late. - Nowadays, I rarely sleep before 4 or 5 in the morning. I am either legitimately studying, or I'm "studying." I partially blame this on wanting more time, therefore staying up late and getting up (relatively) at the same time makes me feel better about the fact that the days go by so fah-reakin fast.<br />
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2) I (sometimes) skip class. - An adverse affect of sleeping late. I like to snooze. And then I unknowingly turn my alarm off. And then I wake up 5 minutes before my class is supposed to start. And then I spew a plethora of expletives at the morning air (and/or myself) and fall back asleep. Wash, rinse, repeat. ...Shit.<br />
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3) I like to take naps. - See a trend here? Little sleep means I most likely take a nap during the day. Maybe even at night? Which means later that night.. not so tired. Therefore I sleep late. Wash, rinse, repeat. ...Fuck.<br />
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I guess these are the main three that have contributed to my shitty feeling. But it's ok, 'cause like I said, they will be broken. And pronto. No more of this nocturnal business. Lol (as I write this at 5 in the morning). We'll see how it goes.<br />
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Linkin Park. An old love of mine. My first addiction. <br />
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Linkin Park - Breaking the Habit<br />
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<div>2) molecular and cellular biology.</div><div>3) linguistics and computer science.</div><div><br />
</div><div>All are majors that I have tried / are going to try. But the third is the one. It better be the one, 'cause I don't really have the time or resources to change again. I started saying to myself quite a bit throughout this semester that I should go into languages. I've always loved learning new languages, and the topic of linguistics has always fascinated me, but I never considered it as a career option. It's just now that I realized the only class I've ever actually looked forward to was my Korean class. It's the only one I've never skipped, never dreaded, the only one where I'm not constantly looking at the clock.<br />
I wish I had come to this realization earlier, as I am now stuck in the middle of classes that have absolutely nothing to do with me anymore. Which equals zero motivation to study for those classes. The only problem is I want to keep my GPA, so after I write this... guess what? I'm gonna go study. The rest of this semester should prove interesting... <br />
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On the bright side, I have so much less on my shoulders, like those constant worries and what-if's about med school that never really leave you. Gone. I'm actually pretty damn excited about this change. It won't be by any means easier, and I'm very well aware that there are other worries that come to replace the med school concerns, 'cause I hear linguistics and computer science is of the bitch family also, but it'll be so worth it. Why? 'Cause I love it.</div><div><br />
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</div><div>Modest Mouse - Float On</div><object height="385" width="480"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/bWvh85Qd8us?fs=1&hl=en_US"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/bWvh85Qd8us?fs=1&hl=en_US" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="480" height="385"></embed></object>tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-43479764432885963782010-11-01T04:52:00.004-05:002010-11-02T17:08:12.847-05:00만약에.그 날이 오면...<br />
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Red Hot Chili Peppers - Otherside<br />
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그만이내.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-72462945241696051382010-10-26T02:48:00.000-05:002010-10-26T02:48:57.409-05:00세상에서 가장 못된...나.<br />
가장 이기적인 나.<br />
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정말... 내가 싫을때가 가끔 있다.<br />
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아~ 눈물...<br />
닦아주고 싶다.<br />
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그 못...<br />
빼주고 싶다.<br />
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그 상처...<br />
지울수 있을까?<br />
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샤이니 - 욕 <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande';">(慾)</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande';"> </span><br />
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넬 - 믿어선 안될말<br />
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Ok. I'm gonna go to sleep eventually tonight. But not at the moment.<br />
I seem to (apparently) have this thing where even though I know I'm going to be hella tired the next day, I don't feel the need to hurry to bed. Yea. Wtf.<br />
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Anyway, I've finished what I meant to finish tonight, and because I spent just about all of this week studying, and because I'm going to spend basically all of next week studying, I've decided to take tomorrow/today off. yay.<br />
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So.. day off means doing choreo... lol. Which, by the way, I cannot wait for. I haven't danced in a while thanks to exams, but tomorrow is the day. Gonna choreo, maybe (hopefully) learn a new dance, and RELAX. what an idea.<br />
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---5:27 AM---<br />
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Looks like I'll be downstairs for a little bit more cause the Koreans down here are going outside for a cigarette (go figure) and they need me to open the door for them. Apparently they don't live here? Why are they here? um...<br />
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Anyway, I figured out what song I'm going to do choreography for next (I actually just made a tentative mix for the first dance for Nightlife scene - life is so much more productive in the wee hours of the night/morning), AAAnd what dance I want to learn next. I'm so excited! Can't wait. <br />
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---5:32 AM---<br />
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Koreans are back in the building... that was fast. aaand I'm still not going upstairs yet. I guess I just wanted to talk about them. that they smoke. and they're fast. cuz that's news.<br />
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---5:41 AM---<br />
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oh. um.. just cuz I always have a song with my posts...<br />
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I actually haven't listened to these guys in a while, and I was reminded of them by their concert poster that was up (they're performing here!), so I went back and listened to them.. and remembered why they're so awesome.<br />
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30 Seconds to Mars - Night of the Hunter<br />
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---5:50 AM---<br />
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GOOD NIGHT.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-53515795165075940062010-10-06T04:14:00.001-05:002010-10-06T04:14:19.394-05:00at war with dream.So. Hoping this wakes me up a little bit.<br />
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Downloaded a song by Jay Park, and it took me a couple listens to realize that it's actually former 2PM member Jay Park. I did recognize the name, but listening, I just thought "I didn't know there was another artist named Jay Park." This was partly because I didn't have a very high opinion of Jay Park's singing, and this one wasn't half bad, so it kinda went against my predisposition. And part of it was 'cause he's not the only one singing. But anyhow, it's not half bad.<br />
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See for yourself.<br />
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Speechless - Jay Park<br />
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And he has another single called 'Bestie' that's also decent. Apparently the studio version isn't out yet though, so no vid.<br />
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Oh, and this failed at the waking up, but whatever.<br />
I suppose I will go to bed in a little bit..<br />
SIGH. my mortal enemy. why must you be so difficult?tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8875073462692659953.post-83484731949447621072010-10-04T03:22:00.002-05:002010-10-04T23:10:45.232-05:00stupid.I really hate losing invaluable points in class for stupid shit that could've been easily avoided. Like forgetting to do homework. Fuck that shit. <br />
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So, moral... don't forget to do homework. Make the damned to-do list. And use it. <br />
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yea.<br />
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When I came to college, I had no idea who my roommate would be. Due to my innate laziness, I had applied late for housing, and I got a temporary room with two other students. A week or so before move-in, I was emailed a new, more permanent room assignment, and that's where my life as I know it right now started. My roommate. And the only reason I was assigned as her roommate was because the girl who was supposed to room with her didn't show for some reason. She must have transferred, or switched dorms. Either way, by some stroke of luck, I met my current roommate Christine. We ended up doing a lot of things together. Long story short (again, I'm lazy), with Christine I joined the Asian-American club on campus, which is where I met a lot of people. And with Christine I joined the club's annual show, which is where I found my passion for dance as well as met a lot of my closest friends. <br />
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It's really strange to think that, had I come to college and not met my current roommate, I would not be where I am right now. Had I gone to a different college, I would not be where I am right now. I would not have met all the people that I spend a good portion of my time with now (maybe I would have, but I definitely wouldn't have been as close), I would definitely not be as involved, and on that note, I would most definitely not have been dancing. Wow. What would I be doing now? I have no idea. What would I do without my friends now, and what would I do without dance?<br />
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grazie a destino.<br />
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Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong<br />
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Sick Puppies - All The Same<br />
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Bullet For My Valentine - Forever and Always<br />
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Yea...I couldn't pick just one.tokki287http://www.blogger.com/profile/11715213248431540928noreply@blogger.com1