grazie a destino

change one small thing, and EVERYTHING would be different.

When I came to college, I had no idea who my roommate would be. Due to my innate laziness, I had applied late for housing, and I got a temporary room with two other students. A week or so before move-in, I was emailed a new, more permanent room assignment, and that's where my life as I know it right now started. My roommate. And the only reason I was assigned as her roommate was because the girl who was supposed to room with her didn't show for some reason. She must have transferred, or switched dorms. Either way, by some stroke of luck, I met my current roommate Christine. We ended up doing a lot of things together. Long story short (again, I'm lazy), with Christine I joined the Asian-American club on campus, which is where I met a lot of people. And with Christine I joined the club's annual show, which is where I found my passion for dance as well as met a lot of my closest friends.

It's really strange to think that, had I come to college and not met my current roommate, I would not be where I am right now. Had I gone to a different college, I would not be where I am right now. I would not have met all the people that I spend a good portion of my time with now (maybe I would have, but I definitely wouldn't have been as close), I would definitely not be as involved, and on that note, I would most definitely not have been dancing. Wow. What would I be doing now? I have no idea. What would I do without my friends now, and what would I do without dance?


grazie a destino.



Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong



Sick Puppies - All The Same



Bullet For My Valentine - Forever and Always



Yea...I couldn't pick just one.

give 'til there's nothing left. value in every breath.

Atreyu - Bleeding is a Luxury


would you throw it all away?
what is the extent of your passion?
what is your need for your passion?
does it transcend your need/want for comfort and security?
what is comfort and security?
what is approval?
what is it?
do you really need it?
could you throw it all away?

MY yogurt is good 'til...

King of New York Hacks: HOPE, and The King of New York Hacks invents a car...: "I have developed a car that will run on water. Unfortunately you'll have to go to the Gulf of Mexico to fill it up. Ba dum dum ching ! ;-) ..."

I came across this blog today on the Blogs of Note and... it's Nice.
The post linked above, I especially liked.  Granted, it's only the second out of two posts I read, but I'm sure you'll enjoy it, too.
Hope.  Yea, I enjoy hope.
*Just picture Agnes (Despicable Me) as the child whose yogurt is more credible than the Mayan calendar, and be prepared for the cutest experience of your day.

"Does this count as annoying?"

<3.

Speaking of which, Despicable Me?  saw it today.  SUCH a cute movie!  Agnes is THE cutest thing, and Gru? what a softy.  =]
It was a fun, yet predictable movie.  Although... the second(?) scene where Gru gives the little boy a balloon animal just to pop it in his face was admittedly traumatizing.

And while we're on the topic of movies, I watched Repo Men yesterday.  Apparently there is no relation to the movie Repo! The Genetic Opera.  And I thought it was just a remake.  But no.  It's apparently a movie adaptation of the novel Repossession Mambo published in 2009, whereas Repo! was released in 2008.  Still.. very suspicious.
Anyway, the movie was alright.  And by alright, I mean... Eh.  I wouldn't go around recommending it to people...  It's quite gruesome, as you can imagine, some humor thrown around here and there, mediocre plot, with a twist at the end that, although it might have taken you by surprise, was predictable.  But, I must admit, it was an interesting concept (not necessarily original) of being able to buy organs as you would a car or a house.  On credit.  Money you do NOT have.  ALMOST sounds stupid.  And for an organ that costs more than your average house and car combined.  No thanks.  I choose exercise and a healthy diet.  Eat that, Bitches!

But, yea, back to the reason I even decided to post this.  That blog up there ^^ (at least that post if nothing else).  It's worth a look.  Check it out.  =D

hurricane venus.

BoA is back with her 6th Korean album after five years abroad in Japan and the US.  Yah!  =D
Hurricane Venus.

Hurricane Venus. (title track) - heavy beat.  catchy.  god i love the thick Synthetic quality of the sound.



Dangerous. - same as before, more or less.  solid beat.  catchy.  Like.



한별 (Implode) - my FAVorite ballad on the album!  if not my favorite song on the album overall.  <3.  it's Simple, Organic.  you FEEL this one.  Love Kim Jong Wan (from the band Nell, who is also the composer) at the end of the song.  <3.



i used to be a little iffy about BoA's voice, but I must say, it's growing on me.  (and might I add that her English is so so much better after her US debut?  thank goodness.)

that's it.  i'm a Fan.  =D

YB.

Taeyang's new solo album SOLAR: July 01, 2010 (that's Thursday!)

Song in the video is Superstar.

Damn... that Smile... =] that... ... damn. ;]


I Need A Girl - Taeyang


Just A Feeling - Taeyang

Ahh...!  I'm excited. Can't wait. Album sounds... and looks. =]  pretty good so far... =D

"Solar" Concept photos

this is when it starts, from THE BEATing of your heart.

Deja Vu - 3OH!3



I'm Not The One - 3OH!3

You're way too young to be broken.  You're way too young to fall apart.  You're way too young to play these games, But you better start, But you better start.  This is when it starts, From THE BEATing of your heart Till the streetlamps talk to you. Jumping off of the edge, Oversleeping your head, Everything's turning dark to you.  I went to pick up the parts, The doctor's hiding the charts, He won't let me see this side of you.  It's on the tip of my tongue, You know you're way too young To have someone lie to you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You're way too young to be broken.  You're way too young to fall apart.  You're way too young to play these games, But you'd better start, But you'd better start.  It was the second I lit Your first cigarette, I forget who you used to be.  And I bit my lip The second you sipped The poison that was mixed for me.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  Drink the poison lightly, 'Cause there are deeper and darker things than you.  I know 'cause I've been there too.  I know it might seem frightening To have the world fall apart right under your shoes.  Trust me, You'll make it through.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  You'd better find somebody else and get a hold of yourself.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.  I'm not the one, I'm not the one who wants to hurt you.

Currently on my playlist. on Repeat. 3OH!3's new album Streets of Gold.  Mm.  I like.

Definitely redeemed themselves from the first impression they made on me.  Let's not go there.  I honestly don't even remember when.  I just remember it was the first time I saw or heard of 3OH!3, it was a live performance, and I hated it.

*****My favorites on this album... (in no special order)

I'M NOT THE ONE.  my FAVorite of them all.  the Beat.  the Lyrics.  love <3 Love it.

DEJA VU.  Ever feel like you're running in Circles?  This is Deja Vu.  Bitch.

BEAUMONT.  The intro track.  A nice heavy sound.  Fairly simple, catchy beat.  get a small Groove and a head bob goin'.  Yea.

I CAN DO ANYTHING.  think, say, and do whatever the fuck you want, cuz I...

WE ARE YOUNG.  ah, youth.

R.I.P.  the grass isn't always as green.

DOUBLE VISION.  Anyone else think the intro kinda sounds like New Day by Will.I.Am?...

STREETS OF GOLD.  You walk on streets of gold, my friend.

LOVE 2012.  Dubstep!?  I believe so.  ...yum.


Well... that's Almost all of them.  Definitely a recommended album.  I do like all of the songs, despite leaving 5 off the list.  My least favorite is HOUSE PARTY.  I don't know about that one... maybe it'll grow on me... maybe Not.

Check it out.  Maybe even buy it...?  now there's an idea.  Lol.... =\

gone with the wind.

passion |ˈpa sh ən|
noun
1 strong and barely controllable emotion
• a state or outburst of such emotion
• an intense desire or enthusiasm for something


slips my grasp.
comes and goes.
like a ghost.

one, two, three, four, five, 6....

They told me 6.

Not.

Monday and Tuesday of this week was definitely an adventure for me. In a sense. The pastor of my church had a seminar he was attending and apparently people were going to be bringing their children. Who, of course, since their parents would be occupied with the seminar, would need watching. So he asked me if I would go with them for an overnight stay at the Quality Inn in the city and be nanny.

No.

I've never had to watch over children before, at least not officially, and before I could even consider it, horrible images of children running around, screaming and yelling, falling, spilling, destroying! everything in their path, were running through my mind. Not to mention little ones getting hurt, and it being my fault for the simple fact that I'm the oldest one there. Hell no.

I packed Sunday night, and Monday morning, I woke up early to drive to my church where I would ride with my paster to the Quality Inn. ...Turns out if I turned this down they would have to go find a random stranger with a whoknowswhatkindofscarypast. Nobody wants that. So I just thought of it as experience and said yes.

What an experience.

They told me 6. I was expecting 6. It was NOT 6.
Nine. 9. That's 50% more volume.

But, nothing super out-of-the-ordinary happened... thank goodness. Nobody got seriously hurt, nobody died or got dysentery, but I did get a super sah-lammin' headache. And a reminder of why I'll never teach elementary school. Or middle school. Not that I want to teach at all, just sayin'.

I'll leave the rest of the fine details to your imagination.

또다시 배운다.

Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park
Road to Revolution Live at Milton Keynes



그 캐릭터가 좋다고 말을했었어요.
너무 마음에 든다고.
그랬어요.
그리고선 그 캐릭터를 화면으로 보시더니,
우리 엄마가 걱정을 하시더라구요.
네가 이캐릭터를 좋아한다는게
너무 이해가 안된다고 말씀을 하셨어요.
참 상처가 많은 사람이었거든요.
그로 인해 참 못된 사람이였구요.
전, 그게 좋았어요.

왜냐고, 엄마가 무르셨어요.
또 이해 못하갰다는 말씀까지.
그 당시 저도 대답을 할수가없었어요.
저도 딱히 무르니까.
그냥 배우가 좋다고, 거짓말은 아니지만,
그냥 그 배우의 팬이라고 넘겼어요.

지금 생각하면
그 캐릭터가 왠지 끌렸어요.
안쓰러운 마음에,
그리고 어떡해 보면, 나를보는것 같은 느낌에.
물론, 그정도는 아니죠.
저, 그런사람 아니예요.
저, 그렇게 힘든 과거 없습니다.
그냥, 그 캐릭터로인해
제 속 깊이, 들키지않갰금 숨겨놨던개
시원히, 아주 후련하게, 표현 되는것 같았습니다.
표현이 서툰 저한탠, 이게 행운이였습니다.

그리고 저, 그사람으로인해, 많은것을 배웠습니다.
그 사람이 커가는것,
그 사람이 하나씩 배워가는것,
그 사람이 마음의 문을
조금씩 여러가는것을 보면서
아주많은것을 배웠습니다.
이미 알고있었을지도 모름니다.
아마 그랬을꺼예요.
단지... 그동안 잊엇었던걸 또다시 배웠을뿐이지.

a small reminder.

Cinderella's Sister OST
신데렐라 언니 OST

It Has To Be You - Yesung
너 아니면 안돼 - 예성

Little things around you that make you think....  Yes, that was what this K-drama was for me.  A small reminder of all the things we have and take for granted...  things we have that so many others don't and wish they did.  Just a small reminder...

I watched this music video before and after watching the drama (it is what made me want to watch the drama in the first place), and I didn't realize until some way through that the music video actually doesn't use any scenes from the drama like they usually do.  Nonetheless, by the end, I saw that the video was just as significant, if not more so.  Serving as an introduction for the characters, the scenes showed their scars, their pasts, their conflicts, and gave the characters even more depth and clarity.  It was, in itself, an extension of the drama.

The drama was very well written, the acting was amazing (especially by Moon Geun Young and Seo Woo), the characters were amazing, and their development and dynamics from beginning to end was just so fun to watch (although somewhat predictable  =\ ).  Upon reflection, it only gets better.  Definitely recommended.