grazie a destino

change one small thing, and EVERYTHING would be different.

When I came to college, I had no idea who my roommate would be. Due to my innate laziness, I had applied late for housing, and I got a temporary room with two other students. A week or so before move-in, I was emailed a new, more permanent room assignment, and that's where my life as I know it right now started. My roommate. And the only reason I was assigned as her roommate was because the girl who was supposed to room with her didn't show for some reason. She must have transferred, or switched dorms. Either way, by some stroke of luck, I met my current roommate Christine. We ended up doing a lot of things together. Long story short (again, I'm lazy), with Christine I joined the Asian-American club on campus, which is where I met a lot of people. And with Christine I joined the club's annual show, which is where I found my passion for dance as well as met a lot of my closest friends.

It's really strange to think that, had I come to college and not met my current roommate, I would not be where I am right now. Had I gone to a different college, I would not be where I am right now. I would not have met all the people that I spend a good portion of my time with now (maybe I would have, but I definitely wouldn't have been as close), I would definitely not be as involved, and on that note, I would most definitely not have been dancing. Wow. What would I be doing now? I have no idea. What would I do without my friends now, and what would I do without dance?


grazie a destino.



Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong



Sick Puppies - All The Same



Bullet For My Valentine - Forever and Always



Yea...I couldn't pick just one.

또다시 배운다.

Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park
Road to Revolution Live at Milton Keynes



그 캐릭터가 좋다고 말을했었어요.
너무 마음에 든다고.
그랬어요.
그리고선 그 캐릭터를 화면으로 보시더니,
우리 엄마가 걱정을 하시더라구요.
네가 이캐릭터를 좋아한다는게
너무 이해가 안된다고 말씀을 하셨어요.
참 상처가 많은 사람이었거든요.
그로 인해 참 못된 사람이였구요.
전, 그게 좋았어요.

왜냐고, 엄마가 무르셨어요.
또 이해 못하갰다는 말씀까지.
그 당시 저도 대답을 할수가없었어요.
저도 딱히 무르니까.
그냥 배우가 좋다고, 거짓말은 아니지만,
그냥 그 배우의 팬이라고 넘겼어요.

지금 생각하면
그 캐릭터가 왠지 끌렸어요.
안쓰러운 마음에,
그리고 어떡해 보면, 나를보는것 같은 느낌에.
물론, 그정도는 아니죠.
저, 그런사람 아니예요.
저, 그렇게 힘든 과거 없습니다.
그냥, 그 캐릭터로인해
제 속 깊이, 들키지않갰금 숨겨놨던개
시원히, 아주 후련하게, 표현 되는것 같았습니다.
표현이 서툰 저한탠, 이게 행운이였습니다.

그리고 저, 그사람으로인해, 많은것을 배웠습니다.
그 사람이 커가는것,
그 사람이 하나씩 배워가는것,
그 사람이 마음의 문을
조금씩 여러가는것을 보면서
아주많은것을 배웠습니다.
이미 알고있었을지도 모름니다.
아마 그랬을꺼예요.
단지... 그동안 잊엇었던걸 또다시 배웠을뿐이지.